I hadn’t thought about you for so very long

But a spell broke within me, when I heard an old song

It triggered a memory from a long time behind

A memory of you held down deep in my mind

We met way back when, from a time gap so vast

Tiny fragments keep coming like gifts from the past

Bittersweet memories haunt me
Beautiful but sad
My decisions still taunt me
‘Cause I lost what we had

I was pure, I was innocent, it was impossible to hide

You were patient and gentle, I asked you to guide

You held me close, softly whispered my name

It felt perfect to me, you said you felt the same

I couldn’t get enough of kissing your lips

Or the feel of your hands on my waist and my hips

Bittersweet memories haunt me
Beautiful but sad
My decisions still taunt me
‘Cause I lost what we had

I gave you my virtue, I gave you my trust

Didn’t really know if it was love or just lust

Meeting secretly weekly, my love for you grew

I was caught in the moment, I thought you were too

Waiting to see you I felt I would burst

Time after time but each time like the first

Bittersweet memories haunt me
Beautiful but sad
My decisions still taunt me
‘Cause I lost what we had

When I close my eyes I see both of us there

I can still feel your touch and the smell of your hair

I remember you calling me English rose

You said I was beautiful, like the flower I suppose

Our love carried on until you went away

I said I would miss you, but I had to stay

Bittersweet memories haunt me
Beautiful but sad
My decisions still taunt me
‘Cause I lost what we had

I knew all along it was your plan to go

Touring the world and so on with the show

Upset we would be a whole year apart

I couldn’t wait around with a broken heart

It felt like forever and with what at the end?

Would you return to me and my heart to mend?

Bittersweet memories haunt me
Beautiful but sad
My decisions still taunt me
‘Cause I lost what we had

I thought you’d forget and seek closeness elsewhere

After all, no one knew, we were just an affair

You were my first love but I had to move on

When you called a year later I said that love was gone

Did you think that I’d be waiting around in the wings?

Was I just a notch on your way to better things?

Bittersweet memories haunt me
Beautiful but sad
My decisions still taunt me
‘Cause I lost what we had

It wasn’t true what I said, I still loved you so much

But I guessed you’d shown others that same loving touch

No promises given, so I’d made my own plans

I soon settled for less, in another’s safe hands

I was scared to be hurt so I put up a wall

I pretended that you never existed at all

Bittersweet memories haunt me
Beautiful but sad
My decisions still taunt me
‘Cause I lost what we had

A secret so secret, a memory repressed

A bittersweet secret, to that time I’ve regressed

Now I’ve triggered the memory, it’s risen again

So many years later, I’m trying to refrain

From thinking about you, would it be so bad

To remember those feelings? Again, I feel sad

Bittersweet memories haunt me
Beautiful but sad
My decisions still taunt me
‘Cause I lost what we had

I buried this love way down deep in my soul

Like a trauma unknown and to others untold

Don’t know how I managed to forget you so well

Some things are still hazy, details I can’t tell

I’ll stick to the fragments that make me feel good

The rest may be things that I’ve misunderstood

Bittersweet memories haunt me
Beautiful but sad
My decisions still taunt me
‘Cause I lost what we had

We’re neither the same as we were once before

We’ve both become older, perhaps you a little more

In my mind you’re 28 and I’m several years less

Just two lovers entwined in such raw tenderness

That’s how I’ll remember the time that we shared

No heartache for others, that pain I have spared